lonely with company

i feel out of place in middle school. i feel like everyone has a place except me. its not like i dont have friends because i do, but they all belong to a diffrent crowd and none of them are in any of my classes. some people think im popular because "everyone knows me" or because "im perfect". thats bull poop. im not perfect i struggle all the time! and nobody honestly likes me. they just use me to get answeres on homework or to cheat on quizs off me. i always get this feeling that most people secretly hate me and everyday that feeling get stronger and stronger. i dont think i've done anything wrong or said anything terrible, yet people still think im weird or care to much about my grades. well guess what; i do care alot about my grades because i want a future and i want my mom and dad to be proud of me. why wouldnt i do my best if i knew i could? people say i freak out when people do better then me or that i always want to be the best and thats not true. i just want to do what i expect out of myself and that just so happens to be a high standered. i guess im not liked because im not all that pretty and i dont date a whole lot of guys and i try to be real but noone seems to want to take the time to figure me out. im not super skinny and i have zits and messy hair and a funky nose and big eyes. but i like all those things about me i have accepted them and moved on. why cant anyone else?